Kids and Heroes by Bouncing Souls
Apparently Al is having a birthday party today. So I suppose he's not a Scorpio and is a Libra... >.> Yeah, I'm a zodiac fanatic. I don't even know why I care. We went on one date together, which was a month ago tomorrow [Which is his actual birthday. Interesting.]. And the date did suck. A lot. So that was a complete turn-off. But of course, there was him chewing gum and blowing bubbles during the movie, which was sadly a turn-on. Stfu. Anyways, he cut his hair now, and me being as shallow as I am, I don't find him that cute anymore. There's a lot of other cute boys in high school that helped me get over him. Wow, I'm so lame and pathetic. And I was never really sad about him not talking to me afterwards our date, more angry instead. So the cute boys made me get over my anger, I suppose. But seriously, he didn't text me on his own once after that week. I think I'll text him tomorrow saying happy birthday... Oh, and I wasn't invited to this party. Which I guess makes sense because it would be awkward, but I was invited last year. I couldn't go of course because we had guests. I guess that's why it bothered me that I wasn't invite, even though I'm not even home. =/ And while I'm talking about Al... I know he liked Melissa at the time, but why did he have to ask me out then. I feel so stupid now because of it. I didn't need to get so worked up about it. And, he went out with Jenny last summer. It kinda makes me sad that I can't be seen as a girlfriend or something. Maybe I need to stop being so shy. Who the hell knows.All the time I hear all how one of my guy friends likes one of my friends and I have to help them with it. Liam likes Melanie, Pawlowski likes Melanie, Robbie likes Katharine, Darren likes Katharine, Al likes Melissa. I like to help people with their problems, but sometimes I wish that one of them would actually like me. I want to know that I'm doing something right. I guess if Pawlowski liked me, I would be a little creeped out. And I know Liam said he liked me a little, which I guess did creep me out a bit. And Robbie said he liked me a bit, but not as much as Katharine, obviously. And I did go on a date with Al... But in all honestly, it doesn't feel like I'm worth it. I want some cute, random guy in high school to look at me and think he won't have a chance with me. Maybe it's just my low self-esteem kicking in now, but really- Wtf.
Anyways, I was going to just talk about memories I remembered when I was in elementary school. I want to be able to record all of this down before I forget them. Of course I probably won't be able to put them all of them. They make me laugh so much and I just miss those times. High school is pretty boring and tedious now. I don't get to see half of my friends and the work is just... blaah. Being a little kid was so much simpler. You didn't care about what people thought, never took anything personally, didn't care about "being yourself" all the time. You just cared about having fun. School was a breeze and the crushes were so silly and petty, it makes me laugh. Clothes didn't matter, whether you shopped at Target or Limited Too. Playing school, playing with Neopets, playing survivor in my backyard...
+ Neopets. I was a complete Neopets fanatic, until, like, fourth grade. I had so many plushies, cards, toys, etc. A few of my friends, mainly Katharine, Marissa, and Tali, would play Neopets with me. They all had Neopets plushies and we would play with them. For example, Katharine and I would use her Kacheeks (Cheeky and Cheeks) and they would be spies for Illusion, a fairy. And Illusion was on a folder, so we pretended that it was a screen and she would talk through it. We would write stories about their adventures, and I think I might still have them. =x Haha, as matter of fact, I think I wrote those stories in Neopets notebooks. What a geek I was. I played Neopets the most with Marissa, my next door neighbor, probably. We had bought Neopets plushies, get them from McDonalds, and have little figurines. We pretended to be their owners and play house with them, kinda, or we would play Hogwarts. Hell yes. And one night, her mom had to go to the hospital, so we were watching her. And she couldn't go to sleep, so I said we should play Neopets to make her feel better. But we didn't have her Plushies, so we dressed up as Neopets. It was fun. We took towels and changed into different clothes. It was, like, eleven at night and we were doing this. x] I used to play Neopets with my friend, Emily, too. Emily's a twin and her brother is named Robbie. Whenever I went over her house, we would play school with our Neopets and usually Robbie had a friend over, too. And they would come downstairs and steal all of our stuff and run away. Haha, it was fun even though it interrupted our classes. xD Oh jeez, how does the time fly by...
+ Beanie Babies. Katharine and I looooved Beanie Babies. She had about two-hundred. She would bring a bagful to my house and would play with them, like we did with our Neopets. I had a Disney Princess Piano book and it had the lyrics and all. I would have two of the Beanie Babies sing a duet, like A Whole New World. Katharine and I would split the songs up and the list of songs in the book still has very sloppy K's and A's, to show which song belonged to who. She tells me now that whenever she comes into my house she always thinks, "Oh, this is where we used to play Beanie Babies!" Hm, speaking of Beanie Babies, I never found one with the same birthday as me. D=
+ Polly Pockets. Katharine had a shitload of Polly Pockets stuff. We mainly played spies, because we were kick-ass spies. She even had guy polly pockets! No one has those and you're always stuck using the short-hair girls as boys. [Lesbian dolls! Woo!] We based it off Catch That Kid sometimes, but she always got the cute Max kid and I got stuck with Corbin Bleu. D= One thing I remembered that was hilarious was that we always made the guys really, really stupid. And they would accidently dress up into girl clothes and go into public, humilating themselves. And one time we were trying to put a skirt on one of them and it ended up that it was a lampshade. -giggles- Okay. It was a you-had-to-be-there moment.
+ American Girl Dolls. Yes- Katharine again. She also had a shitload of American Girls stuff that her grandma sends her. I don't remember a lot of what we did with them, but one time we had this whole spa thing. We both had Kit. By the way- Kit was Katharine practically. Her mom told her that she should of played Kit in the movie if she wasn't, like, four years older than the character. x] Anyways. We gave them earrings and wrote K's on their ears. Other times we used those small, circular stickers. We did their hair in this fountain style. You just take the hair and use a hair tie so it looks like the hair is coming out on the top of the head like a fountain. Then we did a little spa treatment in her bathroom on ourselves. Except I think it was just use washing each other's hair. o__o Her mom had one of those sinks where you can stick your head in it and wash it, which is what we did. I don't remember what else we did, but I just remembered that the most. Also when we were done doing our hair, my mom came and I had to go home. =[
+ Where in the World if Carmen Sandiego? We all know this game and grew to love it. Katharine and I absolutely adored this game and acted it out. I have no clue if we ever did figured out where Carmen Sandiego was, but it actually scared me at times. I had one of those Leapfrog Globes where it talks and it has a pointer thing. Well, Katharine and I were spies [Surprise there, eh?] and I had a bunch of dress-up stuff, so we dressed like we were from Asia. I was from China and wore this Chinese dress I got in Chinatown in NYC and Katharine was from India and I forgot what she wore. Well, we would pretend to call headquarters and stuff where we find out clues of where Carmen Sandiego was. Mind you- this was taking place in my play room and family room. And Katharine would go, "Oh my God! Is that her?" And I would freak out, even though I know it's just pretend. What a silly, gullible girl I was. (:
+ School. Everyone played school when we were younger. Katharine and I would play it a lot in her basement becuase she had a big whiteboard and a chalkboard. Plus, we had younger siblings that we actually taught. Of course, they never listened to us. x] Also, I had two chalkboards in my playroom and we played there too. And one of those rare times when Melanie came over before we were friends [We didn't like each other that much. I thought she was weird because she was always hyper and she thought I was weird because I wore dresses all the time.], we played school. And for spelling, we would pick a word and run to our chalkboard and spell it. Whoever spelt it first and correctly won that round. And it was my turn to pick a word and Katharine taught me how to spell "crystal" and it was one of those times where crystal was a big word, ha. So I thought I had the upperhand and picked that word. Well, what happened was that Katharine taught it to me wrong. I learned it as "cystal." So I lost. ):
+ Survivor. I played this with Marissa and my siblings. We would be stranded on an island and we accidently drink this magic juju. [Haha. Wtf.] And we get powers. Mine was always shape-shifting into animals, water-bending, and earth-bending. Yeah, that's right. I like Avatar, bitches. Zatara all the way! Hahah. I would always build a house with adobe and I don't even know if I could get that with earth-bending. But I would always make stuff out of wood and it was quite tedious in the beginning because we would always start off the same way and we never get far enough that we actually did something different. But hell, it was fun anyways.
+ Emily and Robbie. Usually I just played with Emily, but I played with Robbie, too. I remember he used to play the Sailor Moon card game with us. [Okay. Sailor Moon is the the most kick-ass anime show. I loved it. I had dolls, a lunch box, a bajillion videos, and the card game.] And one time where they dropped me off my house, no one was home, so we hung out in my backyard. So we decided to play baseball. So we took chairs and various objects and marked our bases. I had a giant stick and my dog's tennis ball and used that as the baseball and the bat. It doesn't sound exciting, but it's really nice to think about it. Last year I had this huge crush on Robbie and he was one of my best friends and I ruined it. Just thinking of these times make me laugh because it was all so innocent. Also, at our elementary school is a playground. And whenever Robbie went down the slide he would scream like a girl. x]
+ Katharine. There was all of those things I did with Katharine, but there was a lot of other stuff that happened, obv. She had this journal with a bunch of puppies on it [Hence why I call it the "puppy journal."] and she wrote how she really wished she said "yes" to Keegan, who was like her crush/boyfriend at the time [The time was elementary school. Heheh.], when he asked her if he could kiss her. And she wrote how she was jealous of her sister, who's two years younger than us, because she kissed Keegan underwater in their pool. And I found the journal and was reading it, but I only read those two parts. Katharine was freaking out and ripped up the journal. To this day I still hold those journal entries against her. It was just too precious to give up. x] One time, us and a bunch of people from the neighborhood went to this park about ten minutes away and there was a gazebo. And quite a few people were sitting there with us and we pretended to be Indians Native Americans. We all went around and picked out names and I remember Katharine had this big stick and called herself "Big Chief" and I was "Indiana," because I was illiterate and didn't know that calling Native American Indians were politically incorrect. Oh my, that reminds me. There was a little stream running through the park and Katharine accidently fell into one time. Actually, I think she just slipped into the mud. And then we were swinging on the swingset and she fell backwards into the dirt. It wasn't her day. =x
Hahahah, in kindergarten, I was so mad her at one time. I let her borrow my baby Minnie Mouse ring and she let Brittney borrow it. Can you believe it? And without my permission, too! Wow, I was really mad at her and I would not talk to her at all. On the bus ride to school, I still had to sit with her and our other friend, Kayla, who had a stuffed dog for Show and Tell. I would be all grumpy and have my arms crossed and sit facing the aisle, away from them. And Kayla was shoving the dog into my face and was like, "Maybe she has a tummy ache." [Hahaha. I am literally laughing right now because this fight was so petty and stupid and the whole thing is just... funny. I got completely worked up over nothing.] And we had different teachers, but we combined when we watched a movie. And that day, to my displeasure, we had to watch a movie. So Katharine tried sitting with me, but I didn't want to sit with her. So I asked my teacher if I could go to the bathroom, but then Katharine asked to go to the bathroom, too, right after me. So I saw her in the bathroom and left, running back to the movie room. Of course, I got in trouble because I was running in the hallways and Katharine came back upset, so they made me apologize. Wow, I was a bitchy five year old.
The chances that some stranger is going to find my livejournal and actually read my posts are slim, so this is like talking to myself in public. T.T Oh well, these are for myself, really. You see that my absolute best friend in elementary was Katharine and wow, I just miss everything. But I love how it is now between us, I mean. I can talk to her about anything and say somethings I would be embarrassed about with my other friends. We can just sit there and talk about old memories, too. So many good times. Thankfully, I got most of what I remember down because I wouldn't want to forget these for anything.
I really wish high school would start up, because I find it very sad that I keep missing all of these memories. I want to be able to enjoy the freedom I gained and do more memoriable things of this age. I'm sure I'll get a boyfriend and make new friends and go places, but when?
And since this entry is mostly about memories, it makes me think of some quotes from Perks. So here they are. (:
Quotes from Perks of Being a Wallflower:
+ I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't.
+ When I was walking up the stairs to my dad’s old room, and I was looking at the old photographs, I started thinking that there was a time when these weren’t memories. That someone actually took that photograph, and the people in the photograph has just eaten lunch or something.
+ Sometimes, I look outside, and I think that a lot of other people have seen this snow before. Just like I think that a lot of other people have read those books before. And listened to those songs. I wonder how they feel tonight.
+ I just hope I remember to tell my kids that they are as happy as I look in my old photographs. And I hope that they believe me.
+ Maybe these are my glory days and I’m not even realizing it because they don’t involve a ball.
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